Defenestration.

[saltdawg]

I just had to do a minor flist defenestration. I had a drunken epiphany last night, shortly after talking to morty_baby for the seventeenth time. I realized that I've made some really good friends and admirable aquaintances in real life from the whole cloth of Live Journal. And I realized that those real-life connections are hobbling the freedom I once enjoyed in these pages. So I cut out (most) of the people I've formed and/or ruined real life relationships with. And their close friends, weather I know them or not. Because I'm a narcissist and believe that it's all about me.

I'd like to say that it's not personal, but I can't. This is extremely personal with extreme prejudice...

But even still, if you got the axe, my intentions aren't malicious. Just self-centered and selfish. Because that's how I roll.

(and those of you who I've spent IRL time with who are still around? Draw your own conclusions, because I'm not going to say it.)

In other earthshaking news, I am now officially a resident of Florida. Suck it Rhode Island income taxes!

ETA: I shall maintain my policy of leaving the posts which feel substantial "public."

Comments

[piedpiper.livejournal.com]

i'm with you 100%. ever since i started getting to know my lj friends on the real, i've had to filter everything down to the nitty gritty. i have like 500 filters. your way is easier.

[saltdawg.livejournal.com]

I'm just too lazy to filter. Besides, filters make me feel like I'm being disingenuous. And I tend to get pissed off about being filtered out of stuff, so I figure the best way is to be on the level and by the square.

[creepingivy.livejournal.com]

I've had to filter but generally, its been about one person who doesn't have an LJ but plenty of our mutual friends do and I'm careful about what I say for that reason. It's never malicious. It's just that I don't want them to hear about what's heavy on my heart from the Internet over my mouth, first.

In fairness, there are some things I haven't yet been able to say. Mostly this is because I'll just start crying were I to be placed in front of this person at this moment or there's a big disconnect between the words I can type and the words I can force out of my mouth. It's not that I don't want to say it, I'm just scared of the reaction.

The drop is one thing. The question is if the impact at the bottom will be pleasant or incredibly painful.

Or alternatively, I'm a big weenie and should hitch up my grown up girl panties and make with the truth.

The point is, I use filters but for a specific reason as word vomited above.

[saltdawg.livejournal.com]

I dig and it just sucks having to self edit because of real life. We are all good people and have an unalienable right to our emotions. And if we can't vomit them up here, then why are we here in the first place? Right?

BTW, I just got a ok Cupid hit for a fake facebook profile I maintain. Once I get non-phone internetz I'm going to follow up. Thanks for the inspiration and guts.